Why I’ve Been So Quiet Lately and What’s Coming Up - PART TWO

Back in November 2022, I decided to get a flu shot. I did every year, and this was no different. What was different was what happened after. Something they don’t tell you is that if a flu shot is placed just slightly too deep or too high, it can damage your shoulder. Welp, that’s what happened. Now this is not a reaction to the vaccine itself. Just the administration of it. Let me say this for the people in the back:

VACCINES ARE SAFE! I WILL GET A FLU SHOT AGAIN BECAUSE VACCINES ARE SAFE!

Now some people do have adverse reactions to the actual vaccine. That happens with everything. People have allergies to many different things. This is not what happened. It was administered slightly off the position where it should have been and because of that I went through a lot of pain. I lost mobility in my arm, and had muscle atrophy as well. The simple, everyday things like driving, showering, sleeping, putting on clothes — everything became a painful challenge. I couldn’t do everything I once could at work. I was in pain constantly and it weighed on me. I ended up going through physical therapy which led to surgery. No reconstruction or anything, but surgery nonetheless. And my first surgery, I might add. There was, and still is, a lot of physical, emotional, and mental pain. I have been doing better. It is a slow process, but I am doing better. I still have much more recovery to go.

So where does this leave me now?

I took a long break from music because I was going through a lot. I kept quiet on many things because I needed to process it all myself. But time continues to move on. I am 27 now, and it’s time to make moves. I am currently working on an album that I will be very excited to show everyone, but the problems I dealt with last year are still an issue. I am still working 40+ hours a week. I have no label, no manager, no team. It’s my drummer and me - and he’s in another state. And I realize, now, that I don’t need much else to put on the shows I want to do. I was so focused on putting on HUGE live shows with a full band, all this tech, and all these moving parts. While that’s all great and fun, it’s challenging if everything goes through me. What really upset me with my show last year was the fact that I forgot to enjoy the performance. I love the stage and I love performing, but when I deal with the whole show and every aspect of it, I focus on the technical side of things instead of my performance. I’m listening to the music instead of feeling it. So, this year will be a huge year for me. I will be giving my all into every aspect of my music career. More social media, more shows, more performances. It’s time to build my fanbase from the ground up, and restart my music career. It’s now or never!

Time to LET GO and have fun!